Report from a place deep in the forest

Fuck! I'm stuffed. I am confused. I don't know what I am going to do... Does it sound omnius? Not really, it's just the usual uncertainty that strikes again. Sometimes I describe myself as a wandering lump of confusion and sometimes that lump takes over completely. It has been building up for at least a few weeks now but I'm still amazed by the force of it. My most pressing concern is that I am no longer sure if I am doing the right thing. Actually I am quite sure that it is not. The problem is that I have no idea of what I should be doing instead. Well, some idea but there is nothing that fits. My choices are more or less endless. All I need to do is somehow getting a grade in Chemistry A, ask for a study leave and start a new programme next semester. But which programme? There are a multitude of factors to consider. First of all; I like Uppsala. I don't want to move to soem other place just because they have a programme I like, I think. There is a programme in Lund that I have thought about before - Brandingenjörsprogrammet- and out of nowhere I get this odd thought that maybe it would be good for me to move away from you guys... Where did that come from!?! Ok, that's too strange to think about, moving on. My other options are Teknisk Fysik and Byggteknik, both located in Uppsala. Then there is always the possibility of combining these somehow. And that's as far as I can push that idea. If I try to go any further I get caught up in an emotional chaos that I don't understand the first bit about.

On top of that I am still in a state of shock after watching McLeod's Daughter's. Every now and then I can think of an event or a moment from this or that episode and out of no where comes this flood of emotion. I have an idea of why that is but non the less it freaks me out. I have never before been that affected by a movie/book/TV-series...

So please, distract me. Make me think of something else. The best thing would be if I could reach some kind of conclusion but I don't think that it is a possibility at the moment. So as I said, distract me!

Taking Chances

Today I looked up the tracklist for the Celine Dion concert me and Sara are going to in June. Now I am happy:

First part (black and silver outfit)
1. Video introduction: "I Drove All Night" (remix)
2. "I Drove All Night"
3. "I Got the Music in Me"
4. "The Power of Love"
5. "Taking Chances"
6. "It's All Coming Back to Me Now"
7. "Because You Loved Me"
8. "To Love You More"

Second part (white blouse and red slacks)
9. New Mego's Flamenco (instrumental)
10. "Eyes on Me"
11. "All by Myself"

Third part (glittering fashion victim outfit)
12. Interval video: "My Heart Will Go On" (remix)
13. "I'm Alive" (remix)
14. "Shadow of Love"
15. "Fade Away" (performed between February 16-20, 2008)
16. "Can't Fight the Feelin'"
17. "I'm Your Angel" (with Barnev Valsaint)
18. "Alone"
19. "Pour que tu m'aimes encore"
20. "Think Twice"

Fourth part (white dress with silver strap heels)
21. "We Will Rock You"
22. "The Show Must Go On"

Fifth part (silver and gold 'Tina Turner' outfit)
23. "Soul Man" / "Lady Marmalade" / "Respect" (by band and background vocalists)
24. "It's a Man's Man's Man's World"
25. "That's Just the Woman in Me"
26. "Love Can Move Mountains"
27. "River Deep, Mountain High"

Fifth part (Long yellow outfit)
28. "My Heart Will Go On"

Other tracks

According to the Taking Chances Tour Book, Dion will also perform "Sir Duke," "Sex Machine" and "I Got the Feelin'." And during the French leg of the tour she will also sing: "Ziggy," "Je sais pas," "J'irai où tu iras," "Destin," "S'il suffisait d'aimer," "On ne change pas," "Dans un autre monde," "Tout l'or des hommes," "Je lui dirai," "Je ne vous oublie pas," "Et s'il n'en restait qu'une," "Immensité" and "J'ai la musique en moi" (French version of "I Got the Music in Me").

I reckon there's no need for further comments. [I have been watching McLeod's Daughter's a LOT, shame that Lisa Chappell that plays Claire quit the show in the third season.] Otherwise I am "helping" my mother fix things for the party tonight. Not that she let's anyone do anything. So far my tasks have been: Cryshing ice, (riva ost), moving furniture and put sugar on glasses. Thank God there's only one of these birthdays per person in the family, she gets all worked up and everything is so horrible and no one is helping her and bla bla bla. Right now I have managed to escape into safety at home. I have to go and get ready, the party is only 4 hours away!